So, I had many shocking moments today, everyday, including my favourite Aboriginal Educations class, which is always fantastic to listen to the people talk there, but there was nothing that shocked me more than my brother's subtle Facebook message "yo, dfo is closing."
Suddenly, it hit me, I haven't felt this heavy in long time.
It always felt that these video games will only be born and never really go away, the ones that went away I didn't really know of anyway.
Nothing lasts, everything do eventually fade and die.
It's silly. But I am almost comparing this occasion to the realization when my grandmother passed away- wow, people do die.
I played DFO from the day the North American server opened. The level cap was 40, there were only 5 classes, practically nothing in the cash shop. Naive and simple, people were all capped out at 40 and complaining when the new update would come.
By June 13, I will wake up, the nexon dungeon fighter online page that was once there will no longer exist.
It might be replaced by some other MMORPG
It might be a deadlink
But it'll never look like this again:
I've stopped playing DFO regularly about 1 year and a half ago, taking it for granted that it was available whenever I wanted to go back and touch it a bit.
Suddenly, I feel like I see the cycle of life, in a virtual, imitated world, a video game.
I'm remembering this quote from the movie "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button", during which Benjamin says to Daisy that nothing lasts, and Daisy says somethings do last.
Now, I go to Aphelia Post, there is no one in the pitch darkness that resembles the underworld. Just me, and the NPCs, they are always there, until the day of doom.
My bro says let's play together before it closes- I would like to, but I no longer have time-Teacher's College, undergrad, orientation, volunteering, exercise, friends, job hunting, etc. A mere video game is minuscule in comparison to real life that goes on.
But why sad? I'm not sure. Like things that have happened recently in life, they have made me evermore uncertain of many things.
Maybe it's this very sad melancholic song I'm listening to in background that is making me feeling sentimental.
独角戏 （by 许茹芸）(this is not a folk song!)
Do I wish I maxed out my energy on playing when it was popular? I'm not sure. People always have the tendency to think, bah, I'll savour it for later. Not this time.
I suddenly feel time pass, I have grown older.
Farewell DFO. Bye bye Accordianna. Thank you for the memories.
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